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So much on the mind I don't know whereto share them too.. Just wanted to share then with anyone but you.. Because I know when I share them to you.. You will have another stupid point to pick on me again.. I have no idea how to share my feelings with you.. Anymore.. Wanted to find someone to talk to today. And yet found no one.. Instead was left wondering around the neighbourhood for a few hours before returning back home.. :( |
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Being loved is always better tO keep loving someone who doesn't really appreciate.. I wished to be loved so dearly.. But guess it might not just happen.. Giving up might just be a better choice to end this whole drama.. But it hurts so much.. Is there a easier way out? Im jus a ordinary girl who jus wish to be loved.. :/ is that so difficult? I wish someone can understand me.. I wish you can.. Head hurts.. So does my heart.. LOngoing for you to Put in the first step which I think you might just never will. Not in my life time.. I miss you.. But you really have no understanding for me at all.. So.. Whatever.. |
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bonds are meant to be weaken in a relationship that isnt strong enough.
every single comment can just lead to breaking up these bonds.. its hard to prevent these from happening.. truth is, it is so predictable, you behaving like this.. because you will never surprise me with your actions.. just one single blow, all plans are dismissed.. somehow, i wished you didnt appear... that would made my mood so much better.. because if you did.. i need to be angry / upset.. its kinda tiring to be it.. and its tiring trying not to at the same time.. you dont try to make me happy or cheer me up like you used to anymore.. we both have changed.. and the bonds have been weaken.. |
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Humans have 2 sides of them most of them..
May not be all... Or probably just me.. One side really wanted to care.. The other side is totally selfish.. Which is to be only concerned woth my own and current issues.. Recently there have been so much dissapointments that I know it's coming.. I really don't know how to imagine my future with you anymore.. Really want to give up when I can.. but I'm unsure.. If I can really be independent.. It has been like 2 weeks since we last hanged out.. :/ I miss the lovey dovey feeling we guard to had.. Which always made people envious of us.. But it seems like they are all gone.. |
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seriously. if you dont talk to me since young, i rather you dont talk to me till the world end for me. because when you do, you make me feel like you want something from me and i must give it to you. do you know that or realise it yourself, that no one can say no to you, when they do, you would say they are bias or unfair, without reasoning it yourself. excuse me. i just wanted a reason. a specific reason to know why you need my things for. but you didnt want to tell me. because obviously you are hiding something. and can i know. since when you want something from me, it has been good for me? i can tell you.. ZERO times. you wanted my atm card when i was young? wat happen? my money was missing from my ATM!!! haha.. so funny ? my NRIC? you extended my student line for dad for what reason? for a free phone for yourself. since when can i know when you want my NRIC is to do something for me. ask yourself. to me since young. what i have seen is that, you are selfish. you can tell me that all your bags are still paying for them, then why you still buy so many for? you have like how many branded bags? need me to count for you? please, seriously. find a better way to lie to me. and when i say no to you. you say that im bias against daddy. LOOK and recall yourself. whenever you quarrel with daddy, who is the one who is siding you. whenever you are upset, who is the one beside you to comfort you. whenever you go crazy, who is the one who cools you down? look and answer it yourself. when you need me, did i side daddy ? now look into yourself, who is there for me when im upset? or do you even know when i am upset? who is there for me when i've got a award ceremony? did you even care if i had an award? did you even say good job to me? who is there on our family dinner? whenever we have one? me , daddy, da ge and er ge. are you there? who is the one who talk and advice us from young? its daddy. you wanna know wats with you? in my eyes. you are the one who is making my life difficult, making me depress. telling me stories that i shouldnt be worrying about. giving me problems. asking me for money when im only working part-time. telling me that i am bias when i actually cared for you. being over paraniod and calulative when you shouldnt have. that is you in my eyes. i really wanted a mom like every other girls have. like jy's, nikki's who would talk to them, and really show that she love them. |
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thanks.. for what? for throwing me into heaven and making me fall into hell.. why is that so? because you told me you are booking out at 11am.. makes me idiotically stupidly happily think that u are coming at latest 2pm? and i tried to push back my breakfast.. stupidly thinking to eat breakfast with you.. and den what? you told me that you are only coming at 5pm.. i hinted you that i am upset that you are only coming at 5, pretended that i forgot and asked you again.. and you idioctically dont get my hint and said 5pm again.. making me know that you are booking out early.. making me darn happy that i actually when to the stupid library to borrow dvds so that i cant idiotically watch with you.. hoping that you would come early, i can buy ingredients and cook the stupid dinner with you.. now i feel that im such an idiot.. always stupidly allowing you to throw me into hell.. haha.. i know you are an big fat asshole idiot |
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Yes.. you guys did it.. now im afraid of eating.. thanks for putting this scary thought of eating in my head.. dammit.. this is really making me damm depress.. god.. can some one just bring a knife come over and just cut off my tummy.. arghhhh.... now im not even sure if i am eating properly.. evan you are really deep shit pathetic. whatever man.. Im not overweight!! So STOP ALL UR NONSENSE about ask me to lose weight and saying im fat!! |
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i shall not give a damm anymore.. my life is suppose to only be me, i, and myself. shouldnt get upset with some idiots trying to make my life miserable. get over with it evan.. ha.ha.ha. im so pathetic that i can die. deep shit pathetic. |
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sometimes.. i rather im a lesbian.. rather to fall in love with with girls than guys... guys dont understand things at all.. or at least pretend to listen.. i guess all the guys are the same.. same species same character.. same thing happening to all girls.. guys are idiots.. =.= and i mean it. |
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Haha.. coming across this blog is really entertaining me.. im seriously laughing non stop... http://aalteam.blogspot.com/ enjoy.. =x PS: read from the start... =D |
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i wonder how people write their life stories till its soo interesting, i dont seems to be able to do it. begin eating breakfast everyday, starting my lofe with beehoon and soya milk! <3 still trying to cut down my weight.. >< no time exercise how? die lor..=x, jkjk.. trying to be in diet, eat lesser, because i do know that my everyday intake is too much.. more than what i needed actually, because i dont exercise. he came to stay over yesterday, made me soooo happy and surprised that i was really smiling to sleep. woke up to open the door for him and send him off to work. <3 sweet! i really do hope everyday and every time with him is as sweet as this is.. =D SMOKING IS BAD FOR HEALTH PLEASEEEE CUT DOWN ON THEM!!! OR EVEN QUITT!!!!!! bahhhhhh.. hope today and tml will be a better day than yesterday! <3 |
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editing a new bloggie skin sux..hahaha.. but its kinda fun at the same time.. boo! spend the whole day at the office.. trying to figure how to make only the CBOX nicer!! rawr!! make until i feel bored..=.=''' i really wonder how some people manage to really write so many things down in their blog.. like their daily life.. which i always = unable to do that.. i miss you already! had a really great day ytd, except for the last part=.='' BOOO! Summary of my new blog skin! - Amusment Park! - White - Pink - Blue - Cheerie! - Happy! - Childish =.= - Cute!! - Lovely - Makes me not wanna blog about unhappy stuff! =D |
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Over these month alone.. i spend alot of money ( around 50+?) on the sushi ingredients. and felt.. about.. wasted..>,'' cus i really spend alot of money.. but it was all worth it.. cus its sooooo fun!! esp when you make them together with your closest people.. actually.. we had fun because we all ate while making them.. and they are YUMMYY!!! i had a really great day with you darling.. really happy day!! =D and i also bought alot of stuff yesterday.. like herbal essence shampoo and conditional.. and also Himalaya's weight management pills.. ><'' really need to slim down.. haha..! ohhh! and!! G2000 is having GREAT SALES!!! and i bought myself a blazer, a blouse and a pants! all for 51 bucks!! woots!!! <3 i miss you already!!! cant wait till tml when i see you.. tired day... nite peeps! =D |
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New day, New Blogg, New Happiness, New Hope, and New Ignorance!! =D long time since i last blogged.. figured it will help me pass my boring times in sch.. i Doubt anyone still come over to my blog to see see look look anymore anyway.. =p Recently so much things have happened.. friends breakups, things that happened in my personal life, financially, relationship with family and even with friends. It makes me ponder and wonder, who are really my true friends? Who will really do all those little things for me, be there for me, be the first one who i think of when im down and upset. My bf says, im overly dependent on him, reason because i dont have a "life", my days are spent, playing computer games, eating, sleeping working, Surfing net, stalking people in FB, and i think thats actually sums out what i have been doing for the pass few weeks or even months?? Thank god.. i still have my loving brother at home, i guess when you have a loving one.. you will sure have a Hating one to balance things out. Hahaha.. i guess its time for me to treat him as transparent. =p Thanks peeps that tagged my FB to cheer me up, to advice me. From now on. I wanna try to be... Happier Cutier Friendlier Fashionable Lovelier and CRAZIER!!!! =D <3 you guys.! =D |
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boo.. i just cant decide.. =( booooo having 2 indecisive people together... boooo... its killing me.. SOMEONE BUY ME MORE NICE CLOTHES!!!! |
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life is tiring.. school is stress enough, making me sleep late and wake up early.. every week days is just about repeating the same routine already.. its lifeless.. now.. comes my week ends.. ..gnorwsyawlasiodignihtyreve..gnihtelgnisaodtnaci ..sgnuhtgnitaepertuobatsujsiyadyreve everyday.. is just about repeating the same rountine, to me, a single cant change, not now, not later. they would just stay where they are.. things would just keep staying the same for me.. i have give up hope for comparing for the better.. i have quit doing it.. because, i know we will never ever be like them.. i only hope to be appreciated.. life, is about how one suffers, and enjoy but when one is suffering too much.. we dont always know what will happen.. emgnivolpotstsuj ..kaewmai..niapymesaelerotyllatnemtsujtiekatnacitahthcumos..tola..gnireffusyllaermai |
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Boooooooooooooo~~~ started playing back ro.. but its a private server... when to watch sister's keeper... great movie.. didnt havee a chance to say what i thought these few days.. just didnt feel like it... im still jealous of happy people... seeing him this hardworking for his gf, makes me jealous.. i know i should compare.. but i just cant help it.. i know i should say this here.. but.. i dont know why im doing this either.. booo~~!!! days are so hard to pass sometimes but in a blink time just passes so fast.. im bored sad depressed.. i dont know how to be happy... with all these stress going on me.. school is a super heavy thing for me now... everything on week days about me now, is all about school, school and more school.. during week ends, its all about him.. but also all about how we quarrel.. =( i am never good enough for someone, as usual... i dont know how to put it.. i am always the one who started it, and making things worst.. im the trouble maker... i know, i know, change change change... but how? get a psychologist to cure my illness? fat hope.. may be.. one day i should really go find a counselor.. boo... days are hard... real hard...=( |
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